There comes a point that you have to share what’s on your mind. Is this that moment for me? Well, it may be. Maybe it’s not the right time but I have to at least try tonight. The last couple months have been the hardest of my life, and I never thought I would be able to say that after last summer and Brian’s death but then again I never expected that this would happen.
I never expected that my mom would be one of the women who would be diagnosed with breast cancer, I never expected that we would face hurdle after hurdle while trying to undergo treatment, I never expected that we would then find out that treatment plans were changed and that chemotherapy needed to start ASAP and that she wouldn’t be able to join us in Guatemala.
I never expected that I would be so side-lined by this new information that I would spend the following day hidden away, almost unable to get out of bed and definitely not putting on make up.
But it was what I did expect and that ended up happening, that reminded me why life is so worth living. It was receiving an email from one of my pastors saying I could talk to her anytime, it was knowing that both of my church families and friends were praying for mom and our family, it was finally getting to see little Ollie and spend some quality time with Kaleigh, it was sitting down and talking with my mom and it was receiving a facebook message that was so unexpected that it caught me off guard. It was a busy weekend filled with movies and church services with the kids at church.
I’m so thankful for these things and so proud with my ability to see the good whereas a year ago I couldn’t.
Are you or someone you know experiencing feelings of depression? Are you interested in learning more about how someone battling depression goes through day by day? I visited this site earlier this week and it was eerie how much I could relate to parts of the experience. Depressionquest.com